Welp, if you can't tell, it's gonna be my birthday soon again. I'm gonna be 19 ._.
I also have a boyfriend now~ Shock-u desu ._.
Er... yeah. Das it. Bai.
Alice Lieberg
This is really just a place for anyone to come and relax. At least it is for me.
Monday, March 23, 2015
I'M TURNING OLDER OFFICIALLY AGAIN
Hello~
Welp, if you can't tell, it's gonna be my birthday soon again. I'm gonna be 19 ._.
I also have a boyfriend now~ Shock-u desu ._.
Er... yeah. Das it. Bai.
Welp, if you can't tell, it's gonna be my birthday soon again. I'm gonna be 19 ._.
I also have a boyfriend now~ Shock-u desu ._.
Er... yeah. Das it. Bai.
Wednesday, March 4, 2015
Should I call myself cowardly?
Hello...
*sigh*
I have the same problems in my life, and I don't know if there's a way to solve them. Well, you know my weird love life by now, but apparently, I'm making the girl sad by not being her friend, so her boyfriends been pestering me to make me her friend again. I think I've stated previously that I do not wish to be friends with her anymore, as I believe that she is legitimately not a good person.
She hurt my friend really badly, and never truly resolved the problem. She also hurt me, but... let's put that aside. And I do not think that her current actions are justifiable, cuddling with other guys while in a relationship is NOT justifiable by any sense of twisted logic, and her reason for getting into the relationship was not good either. She said that she wanted this relationship because it's long distance, so since he can't see her, she can remain free like a single person. Do you see why I don't want to be friends with her? That sounds like the words of a woman that can't remain committed and devoted. So yes, despite telling him 90% of this paragraph, he said he didn't care. So I basically started distancing myself from him too. I found it stupid, what can I say?
But... well, I thought after all that, I was really done with him. That I had no lingering feelings, so no matter what happened after, it would be like a rock thrown at a wall. But it wasn't so. She started crying again (I don't know when, but she did. I actually don't know why either, I didn't talk to her in a while.), and obviously, that compelled him to approach me. What he doesn't know... is that I do have lingering feelings, or some sort of concern for him. As soon as I saw the Facebook notification, I started sobbing. Like, loud, gross sobbing. I was playing League, and had a relatively good day. That very morning, my friend mentioned his name, and soon after apologized when he realized that I wanted to forget everything that was him. And well, he was on my mind yes, but I wasn't feeling down... until he messaged me. I didn't know what to do, I... just started crying. I was on Skype with several of my friends, but only one was there for the time being. And she was in Korea, so she felt even shittier that she couldn't come and help me. Then the people that were temporarily missing showed up, and either tried to comfort me, or didn't know what to do. All my friends agreed that I could ignore him though, they said if one message affected me like that, then obviously upholding a conversation would be impossible. Which would have been good... if it stayed like that.
I don't know of the method he used to get my number, but he did. Thankfully enough, he didn't call me, but he sent me a text. And then I felt trapped. Even if I ignore him, he's going to keep reaching out, and I have no way to escape. I got 11 FB messages, all of which I ignored and deleted, and two texts as of now.
To be honest, it probably would be better if I talked to him. Maybe it wouldn't solve the problem, but as much as I feel that he wants to help his girlfriend, I don't want to get hurt in the process. While I do dislike her, I wish no harm upon her, and I truly didn't mean to hurt her. But asking me to be friends with her again is too much. I didn't know that she was that kind of girl, and now that I do... I just can't.
She gets people to pay lunches for her. Specifically men. She sometimes comes to school with no money, acts all cutesy-like, and gets them to buy lunch for her. She even got a guy to pay for her whole sushi meal, which is about 20 bucks. What's worse is that she has a job, and that guy who bought her sushi doesn't. *sigh*
Am I being stupid? I am for sure making mistakes along the way. I've never dealt with this before. I... just can't talk to him though. He knows I like him, and yet he keeps trying to use that to convince me to be her friend. But I can't. I don't want to do this anymore. If I could, I would reverse time, and make sure this whole drama never happened. Could I convince my past self that liking him will only cause problems? I don't know, but it'd be worth a try. I don't know if I could like his girlfriend in that timeline though, no matter what I can think of, she'll always hurt a dear friend of mine, and I can't accept that. *sigh*
This whole fiasco made me realize that I have good friends though. Ones that would support me no matter what. Even a guy I recently got along with is helping me a lot. ^^
Anywho guys, toodles.
*sigh*
I have the same problems in my life, and I don't know if there's a way to solve them. Well, you know my weird love life by now, but apparently, I'm making the girl sad by not being her friend, so her boyfriends been pestering me to make me her friend again. I think I've stated previously that I do not wish to be friends with her anymore, as I believe that she is legitimately not a good person.
She hurt my friend really badly, and never truly resolved the problem. She also hurt me, but... let's put that aside. And I do not think that her current actions are justifiable, cuddling with other guys while in a relationship is NOT justifiable by any sense of twisted logic, and her reason for getting into the relationship was not good either. She said that she wanted this relationship because it's long distance, so since he can't see her, she can remain free like a single person. Do you see why I don't want to be friends with her? That sounds like the words of a woman that can't remain committed and devoted. So yes, despite telling him 90% of this paragraph, he said he didn't care. So I basically started distancing myself from him too. I found it stupid, what can I say?
But... well, I thought after all that, I was really done with him. That I had no lingering feelings, so no matter what happened after, it would be like a rock thrown at a wall. But it wasn't so. She started crying again (I don't know when, but she did. I actually don't know why either, I didn't talk to her in a while.), and obviously, that compelled him to approach me. What he doesn't know... is that I do have lingering feelings, or some sort of concern for him. As soon as I saw the Facebook notification, I started sobbing. Like, loud, gross sobbing. I was playing League, and had a relatively good day. That very morning, my friend mentioned his name, and soon after apologized when he realized that I wanted to forget everything that was him. And well, he was on my mind yes, but I wasn't feeling down... until he messaged me. I didn't know what to do, I... just started crying. I was on Skype with several of my friends, but only one was there for the time being. And she was in Korea, so she felt even shittier that she couldn't come and help me. Then the people that were temporarily missing showed up, and either tried to comfort me, or didn't know what to do. All my friends agreed that I could ignore him though, they said if one message affected me like that, then obviously upholding a conversation would be impossible. Which would have been good... if it stayed like that.
I don't know of the method he used to get my number, but he did. Thankfully enough, he didn't call me, but he sent me a text. And then I felt trapped. Even if I ignore him, he's going to keep reaching out, and I have no way to escape. I got 11 FB messages, all of which I ignored and deleted, and two texts as of now.
To be honest, it probably would be better if I talked to him. Maybe it wouldn't solve the problem, but as much as I feel that he wants to help his girlfriend, I don't want to get hurt in the process. While I do dislike her, I wish no harm upon her, and I truly didn't mean to hurt her. But asking me to be friends with her again is too much. I didn't know that she was that kind of girl, and now that I do... I just can't.
She gets people to pay lunches for her. Specifically men. She sometimes comes to school with no money, acts all cutesy-like, and gets them to buy lunch for her. She even got a guy to pay for her whole sushi meal, which is about 20 bucks. What's worse is that she has a job, and that guy who bought her sushi doesn't. *sigh*
Am I being stupid? I am for sure making mistakes along the way. I've never dealt with this before. I... just can't talk to him though. He knows I like him, and yet he keeps trying to use that to convince me to be her friend. But I can't. I don't want to do this anymore. If I could, I would reverse time, and make sure this whole drama never happened. Could I convince my past self that liking him will only cause problems? I don't know, but it'd be worth a try. I don't know if I could like his girlfriend in that timeline though, no matter what I can think of, she'll always hurt a dear friend of mine, and I can't accept that. *sigh*
This whole fiasco made me realize that I have good friends though. Ones that would support me no matter what. Even a guy I recently got along with is helping me a lot. ^^
Anywho guys, toodles.
Alice Lieberg
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