I really hope you'd roll up and die.

Read the whole thing before judging.

Well, my mom hooked me up with a job at a retirement home, and hey, it wasn't so bad. I did cry though, because I felt bad for all the old people. It was weird really, the man lost his hearing, and I started crying a bit. ^^'

But then, at lunch... Okay, so basically, the people asked what we wanted to eat, the cooks I mean, and yeah, my mom just chose for me, and I didn't really care. HOWEVER. I was really hungry, well, I really just wanted a bit more rice. See, I woke up at 6, and I didn't really eat anything, just some French toast. The point is, I was hungry right? Well, my mom had not really wanted to finish her food, and she didn't really touch it? Like, 3/4s of her food was left. And yet: "wtf, you still want to eat? It's not healthy to eat a lot, stop eating." Do you know how mad I got?

I was hungry, I wanted to eat, and you STILL go on about how "fat" I am. Random fact, DID YOU KNOW THAT MY SKIN IS LITERALLY AT MY BONE? LIKE, IF YOU GRASP ME, I'M NOT SQUISHY, I HAVE SKIN ON MY BONE? And, maybe I didn't write it in that sentence, but yes, she called me fat. After some convincing from multiple colleagues, she was like: "Okay... you can eat." But I was so pissed, I wanted nothing from her.

F*ck my mom. Everyone in my family tries to convince me that she just wants the best for me, but do you know what I get everyday? "Worthless piece of sh*t, you're fat, stop being lazy, wtf, you're tired? Please, you can't be tired, get off your lazy ass. You know, any other kid is better than you." And it's not even like helpful information. I'm not allowed to eat? Oh woe is me, eating is unhealthy, no rice 5 u. stfu. She goes on about how in the war, she didn't get to eat either, LIKE B*TCH, DO WE LOOK LIKE WE'RE IN A WAR? I'M HUNGRY. LET ME F*CKING EAT. DON'T THINK YOU'RE SO SMART BECAUSE YOU'RE SIXTY.

She told me that there are parents that are worse than her. What? Just because there are worse, you're good? YOU'RE A GOOD PARENT, BECAUSE THERE ARE WORSE PARENTS THAN YOU? GET OFF YOUR TALL HORSE, AND FALL TO THE GROUND LIKE A PIECE OF SH*T. WHY THE F*CK ARE YOU ALIVE. GO DIE ALREADY, YOU'RE USING MY AIR.

Honestly, I don't mind the place I'm working at, I could stay there. But the idea of working besides my mom infuriates me. I want her to die. If she dies, I can eat. YOU KNOW HOW SAD THAT IS? IF MY MOTHER DIES, I'LL BE ABLE TO EAT. LIKE, I'M NOT ASKING TO PARTY, I'M ASKING IF I CAN EAT.

Woooooooooooooooo, I feel much better now. Toodles~

Alice Lieberg

 

The secret to being happy

HELLOZ

Well, last night, I was up 'till 2 am with my friends, talking about life, and we started getting into the deep stuff, then I started lagging, and I couldn't express all of my feelings, so here we go ._.

Starting off, sometimes you can't do anything about it. Let's be real here, the conditions in which you were born are purely luck-based. You could be rich, average, poor or in war at the start of your life, and you have no way of preventing that or choosing that. When I was born, I was awake in an Asian household, with strict parents who fought very often, and four sisters. My house was okay, my previous house happened to be a medium-sized one with a really big set of stairs. So, in that case, my start of life wasn't horrible. But some people aren't so fortunate, when you're born, you have predetermined conditions, and don't be one of those people who say that: "If you're parents made more of an effort, there wouldn't be luck." because that's bullsh*t. Life just isn't fair sometimes, you could've lived a good life up to now, then tomorrow? Tornado. Who knows who it killed, who knows what it destroyed... sometimes, life can be a d*ck. But, there is a way to divert yourself from sadness when you're going through it.

Think of the good things, no matter what, and amplify that feeling. When you have a choice, make it, don't just leave it there. If you have a choice, do it. JUST DO IT, DON'T LET YOUR DREAMS BE DREAMS AND JUST DO IT. I've lived in a strict household, and my sisters have told me that they softened up a bit after coming to Canada, but they were still strict. And sometimes, I couldn't take that. I cried and cried and cried. I got hit for the littlest things, or the biggest ones, got insulted frequently by my parents and I was just too weak to withhold my emotions, and then they got even more mad. But, I've always found a way.

Late at night, I was telling my friends that I actually liked my life up to now, and they called BS xD. After hearing what I went through, they found it hard to see how I actually liked everything thing I went through. So I explained myself. It's not that I was happy all the time, I was sad most of the time to be honest, my house isn't a very loving one, and I probably needed affection when I was little. And to be completely honest, I didn't have many friends to talk to. I wasn't close to anybody. High school got a lot better, I was able to make lots of friends near the end of it. But my house didn't change, it was still pretty bad. And yet, I liked it. Lots of bad things may have happened, but good things did too. It's not like when I woke up everyday, I wanted to murder the world and curse God for all he's done to me, I actually generally woke up in a good mood. Why? Well, school was actually something to look forward to. Even if I didn't have many friends, it was just a more open environment, and I was able to speak my thoughts and let out everything. There weren't many reasons for me to be sad at school. Even when I came home, it's not like poop starting raining on me (though it was like that this summer, but that's another story), I came home, did my chores and... yeah, that's it. I ate supper and stuff, did my work, chatted online and that's it.

When I think back on my life, I don't look at the bad stuff, I look at the good stuff. And that's how I judged how much life has given me, by the good stuff. Like I was saying at the start, I had the choice to be happy or sad, I just happened to be lucky. Some people just can't sometimes, life sucks, and that's very sad. But to those who have a choice, look up. Why see the glass half-empty when it could be half-full? To those given the opportunity, to those who still can, I ask of you to do so. Because like I said, life sucks, and if you don't take that chance, it might just leave you. And you don't want to leave that opportunity to luck. I RAMBLE A LOT I'M SORRY XD 

Alice Lieberg

Fire Emblem Awakening - Future Past SPOILERS

You've been warned.

The Future Past 3 - Bad Ending

It's the ending of the DLC if one of the children, with the exception of Lucina, since she needs to stay alive, dies.

Man, I'll tell you the truth. When I played this DLC, I was on Lunatic mode, and had NO PATIENCE TO PROLONG THIS, SO I FINISHED IT IN ONE TURN AND WATCHED THE GOOD ENDING. So, I was left with the gushy gushy happiness XD

But this blew me apart. My emotions just DIED. If you must know, I'm actually quite the fan of sad endings, unless they're total BS (Final Fantasy XIII-2). This butchered me. The fact that he wants to be killed, and how Lucina remembers faintly of the old him. I'm going to start assuming stuff here haha. Basically, we all know that the time travel shenanigans have been happening, and that the Future here is different than the future that Chrom and the others have. When this Future of Despair happened, it wasn't as early at the current timeline, it happened years later, when the children were left to fend for themselves. And Grima/MU rampaged a long time ago, but I'm assuming it took a while for him to fully awaken. Hence this storyline. Lucina must've met MU/Grima when she was little, so she couldn't recognize him fully, but has faint memories of his voice. Him, however, being a fully-fledged adult, knows EXACTLY who she is, and what she's capable of. He doesn't want to cause further anguish, so he wishes for his death.

OKAY, AWAKENING'S STORYLINE IS SO CHEESY, AND THE MU IS VERY GENERIC. BUT I LOVE THIS GAME. THEY DID WELL.

He wanted to lie, but he couldn't. Seeking death makes me sad, there's just so much you can do. And this scene shows his desire to be alive, in a world where he is not Grima, or his vessel to be accurate. Lucina shows reluctance to one who wants to die eagerly. It pains me so.

Please get this DLC, so play it again, iunno. It's just so worth it.

Alice Lieberg