Keiji wants me to post something XD

Hello~

I got a job at the bakery the other day :D

Everyone is super nice, and I really like it there. The cakes are good too >< I'm working on 10/10 beach body though. My boyfriend keeps telling me I'm pretty, but I wanna look like a kpop idol D:

We went on a date for Valentines day two days after Valentines, spent all day with my nerd <3 Spent half the day at his house, playing games. Ate KBBQ in the evening, since it's all you can eat, starved myself during the day to stuff the food in my stomach.

I keep having weird dreams though, I keep dying ._. iunno if that's normal. My mom tells me it's 'cause I worry too much, but who knows ._.

I'm trying my hardest to break outta my anxious phase. I try to go to events where people I'm not used to is there, but eventually I end up not being able to talk ._. Maybe I'm just shy, but I wanna change that. I wanna change a lot about myself actually, I wanna be 100 before I die. School-wise, I'm okay, but everything else could use some improving.

THERE'S SO MANY DAMN FLIES IN MY HOUSE, I HOPE SOMETHING DIDN'T DIE.
That's it for tonight~ iunno what to write.

Alice Lieberg

I'm stressed, and the semester didn't even start yet

Hi guys!

First of all, merry Christmas and happy holidays!

I have to say, I'm not as sad as it seems, hopefully. Maybe I have a problem, I don't know. I tend to overthink a lot, that's what both my boyfriend and my mom tells me all the time.

But anyways. My semester "was" great, until I bombed all my finals. And now, I'm just lost. I don't get how I could get 80 the whole semester, and just... flunk like that.

It hurts, I don't know what I'm doing wrong, what I have to consider, who I can talk to about this. Looking at myself is really difficult, I can't think of... anything, when I'm like this. I often want to cry. Failing isn't something that makes anyone feel good, and... I seem to be doing that at a moment's notice.

What should I consider in my life, and how can I... move from this? Nothing ever seems to be going the way I want it to be, and I want a job later on, so I can live comfortably. And not a minimum wage job, I even want to quit my current job, because all the people there are really toxic. Being around them is like being around a bunch of pigs.

I've gotten a new computer, and my friend helped me build it. But now, I just feel like poop. I can play games all I want, but... it won't help me build a career. People have told me if I played less games, my grades would go up, and yes, very true. But you have to consider that I got a solid grade of 80 throughout the semester, and I STILL BOMBED THE FINALS.

I've sent an application to switch programs, before my school decides to cut me. Hopefully it works. But... I don't know guys. I don't know what I need right now, or who I can talk to. My boyfriend is a great listener, but his advice is a bit lacking, and my family... I can't trust them anymore. My friends have a nonchalant attitude about everything, with the exception of my best friends, they've helped me throughout my life, all the time.

I have work soon, hopefully I won't feel too down.

Alice Lieberg

Finals are upon us! And happiness issues

Hi guys~

I know I'm highly inactive, but IT'S OKAY. MY BLOG MY RULES.

Finals are upon us, and honestly, my grades for the most part are fine. JUST GOTTA TRY HARD. I GO HARD IN THE P-

But anyways, yeah. I'm doing fine. Mostly :)
I've gotten into a fight with someone, and was feeling like poop for a while, and sought consult from a few close friends of mine. And slowly, I started realizing how dependent I am of others. Or maybe how sensitive I am, it's all the same OTL

The fight was about me whining, and he was pointing out a lot of my flaws, and I just felt so uncomfortable. I don't know if my flaws are what defines me to other people, but I wouldn't like to think so. Everyone has flaws, to have someone call them out when you're arguing is common, but not something that's particularly flattering.

I've been trying to improve myself, for my own benefit, but also so that other people can accept me for who I am. It sounds a bit silly, but after my huge down last year, I wanted to improve myself so much. I was either reliant on others to be happy, or so envious of other people's skills that I was always so miserable with myself. I knew I needed to change.

First thing was first was to get my work ethics back up, which for the most part, seems to be working. That's how my grades shot back up after all. I wanted to lose some weight too. For the most part, I didn't really gain that much, but I like my body a certain way. I'm now at my normal body type, and I still eat like always, so nothing really changed. I've also taken interest in different hobbies and skills, to further try to improve myself. I realized that I give up on things too quickly, that's why I wanted to acquire different skills and not give up this time.

But when it comes down to it, I really need to "learn how to be happy". And this REALLY is a problem in my life. Other people affect me so much, because when I get insulted, or thrown shade at, it reminds me of all of the bad things I'm working to get rid of, and I haven't really given up on them. Everyone has their own weaknesses and strengths, and I do acknowledge that to be really happy, you need to be happy with yourself, and I haven't reached that yet. In some ways, I have. I really think I'm pretty for once. After last year's phase of my family "fat-shaming" me, I really hated my body. I didn't really gain too much weight, but I guess they were scared that I would gain more. I really do believe in my looks a lot more now. As for my psychological or... personality flaws, not so much.

Some people see my flaws as something to work on, and some people see my flaws as... reasons to pick fights or to not hang out with me. And the latter always gets to me. It's as though those people are mirrors to the awful parts of myself, and I can't stand looking at that for too long.

I cut some people off again, I don't want to stay away from them permanently, but I want time to find myself properly this time. My boyfriend was discussing how I can go about all of this, and I think this was the best course of action to take for a while.

DON'T GET ME WRONG THOUGH, I'M NOT SEVERELY UNHAPPY, I ENJOY LIFE SO MUCH, 'CAUSE THERE'S SO MUCH TO SEE EVERYDAY. But, I think this is my way of... fitting in with life, as great and as bad as it gets. Thanks for reading :)

Alice Lieberg

UNLUCKYYYYYYYYYYY

HELLOOOOOO

Well, yeah, I ran into problems lol

I cried too, 'cause I got into a fight with my boyfriend :(
Basically, all my pics got erased from my phone, my new laptop died (I fixed it now though).

Soon, I have my driving test, and then I have dentist, I'm getting Invisalign, 'cause my teeth be ugly xD

University is going smoothly, I'm pretty happy :)

As for my Fire Emblem Rant, I'm gonna post it on YouTube, look forward to it :D

Alice Lieberg

I made an Danganronpers thingy

Hello~

I'm great, I made a 1 min teaser for a VN I might never finish LMAO

DANGANRONPA ZERO VN

Also, still working on that FE:Fates rant, GET READY.

Umm, that's it I guess. School is okay, I'm taking it more seriously, so I really hope I do well ><
I ALSO DID A JOB INTERVIEW. I THINK I DID WELL. NOT SURE. #PLSHIREME

Tell me what you think about my LITERALLY TINY VN, THX

Alice Lieberg

I have school again

Helloooooooooooo~

Well, school started again xD

Honestly, I don't mind, but I really am not looking forward to all my assignments and tests. I'm also trying to make a game, and to continue my YouTube channel again. I'm really dead inside.

I have a "Let's Play" going, but when I have time, I'm trying to upload content that involves more editing, 'cause Let's Plays aren't for everyone :/

League and Overwatch videos so far. I'll try to upload weekly, but as you all know, I'm dead inside, so WHO KNOWS WHAT'S GONNA HAPPEN DOWN THE LINE.

My first class was pretty mundane. I got bored so fast ._.
I met someone though, that I never saw irl, but photos of 'cause he's a friend of my friend XD
Very briefly, but I still met them haha

I wanna make a rant about Fire Emblem Fates, honestly, I HAVE A LOT TO SAY, THAT MIGHT NOT BE ALIGNED WITH THE OPINIONS OF MANY.

Alice Lieberg

NEW JOB MAYBE (PLS)

Hello~

I got a job offer! It's for a receptionist job, and I really hope I don't screw up :D

Other than that, umm... Oh, I got to watch "Don't Breathe". It's a really good thriller/horror, everyone needs to check it out :D

I also finished Steins;Gate. Oh my God, that sh*t's a masterpiece. ._.
Maybe I'll do one of my mini-reviews on that.

I also almost broke up with my boyfriend. We had some problems, and I kept them to myself :/
Well, we talked, and yeah, he said he was sorry for all the things that made me sad. I kept apologizing too, since I didn't go to talk to him. Hopefully things work out :)

My mom also made me a scarf~ It's really cute and BLUE. IT'S BLUE GUYS. *cries forever*

I wanna make new YouTube videos and stream ._.
SCHOOL COMING AND I'M LAZY. I'LL MAKE A VIDEO BEFORE I START SCHOOL I PROMISE GUYS.




Toodles~

Alice Lieberg

I cried again

My family is not getting better. I think they're indulging in their own pride. I don't know what to do. I don't want to talk to my family. It hurts.

K-BBQ Embarrassment ._.

Hello~

I had the BEST K-BBQ to offer in Montreal. IT WAS SO GOOD. IT WAS LIKE MEAT HEAVEN.
It was a place called "Mon Ami", and... IT WAS SO GOOD. THE FOOD WAS SEASONED PERFECTLY.

But something really embarrassing happened :S
Basically, one of my friends brought his... friend. A girl. And she kept yelling about everything ><
She complained about the price so much ><
She even dropped a place on the ground and refused to pick it up 'cause she said it wasn't her job to pick it up ><

But the food was so good! *sigh*
Go check it out :D

Also, I have to pay for my phone bill now XD
#firstworldproblems

Alice Lieberg

Transfer students wooooooooooooooo~

Hi guys :D

For another time this year, I met Japanese transfer students :D
Well, socially-awkward me just saw in a corner alone, until someone joined me. Haha, we were both not really wanting to talk to new people ^^'

It was fun, they all seem really nice, but I really don't see me being 100% friends with them, so I feel so lazy .-.

Tomorrow, I'm gonna go to a picnic :D
Iunno what I'm gonna make though, maybe fresh-fruit salad. I'm still looking forward to it though :)

Also, I STILL LIKE LEAGUE OF LEGENDS, BUT PEOPLE KEEP DISSIN' MY TASTE, AND IT'S PISSING ME OFF. My friends basically don't play League anymore, but they play Overwatch, and they keep mocking me for still liking League :/

It's so f*cking annoying. Why can't you stfu and just be okay that I still play League :/
I understand if you don't like the game anymore, but putting someone down because they still play is f*cking dumb.

Alice Lieberg

POST NUMBER 100 WOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Hello~

Just married my hubby again <3

He's so adorable~ If he were real, I'd probably... yeah.

In other news, I'M CURED. FROM THAT AWFUL VIRUS. ;A;
I can eat solid foods again, and talk properly, and close my mouth without it hurting, AND NO MORE 100 COLD CORES IN MY MOUTH ;A;

I was never that sick, but getting sick got me suuuuuuuuuuuuuuper sad, and it reminded me of how much I don't really like my job. People are really rude, especially when I got sick. I rarely call in sick, like, someone calls in sick once a month, I call in sick... once in a blue moon, and I'm the one who gets yelled at :/

Anyways, ALL IS GOOD. I STILL HAVE TO BABYSIT. GOOD BYE.

Alice Lieberg

I'M SICK AAAAAAAAAAAA

Hello!!!!!

I'm dying plz help

This all started last Saturday, I had a really high fever and a migraine. AND I WAS AT WORK. Noises and light pained me, so I asked to go home, but they didn't want to let me go home unless I had a replacement, so my mom volunteered. My mom replaced me, I went home, ONLY TO FEEL HOT AND COLD, VOMIT, AND NOT BEING TO EAT FOOD PROPERLY.

Also, my coworker screamed at me that day for wanting to go home. He was saying stuff like, you look fine, you ain't on the floor atm. He's usually not mean. The next day, my family didn't really want me to work, but I ended up going 'cause I was scared of being yelled at ><

Anyways, NOW MY MOUTH IS FILLED WITH COLD SORES OR SOMETHING SIMILAR. LIKE THE WHOLE MOUTH. NOT JUST MY LIPS. MY.  WHOLE. MOUTH. And my throat is sore :(

I can't eat solid foods without dying. Passing it through my throat is hell. I could chew it more, but like I said, my whole mouth is currently dead. including my tongue, chewing things also hurts :(

I went to the pharmacist, but he said my sickness will probably last a week, with or without medicine, so my mom didn't get me any. I wanted some, JUST SO I CAN EAT SOLID FOODS FOR AT LEAST A MOMENT, BUT SHE SAID IT WAS A WASTE OF MONEY QQ

So yeah. Talking and eating, no. SWALLOWING HURTS. IT HURTS TO SWALLOW SALIVA ;A;

I got someone to replace me at work tomorrow, but I have to go the day after probably.
I WANT THE MONEY, BUT MY MOUTH REALLY HURTS. I CAN'T EVEN SMILE WITHOUT HURTING MY MOUTH QQ

ANYWHO, I HOPE THIS GETS BETTER SOON. I DON'T FEEL THAT ILL, BUT MY MOUTH REALLY HURTS, SO I CAN'T EAT DA GUD FUD AND MAKE THE MONEYS ;A;

Toodles~

Alice Lieberg

Calypso :D

Hi guys :D

Did you ever go to Calypso? I did yesterday :)

Well, I did go a while ago, when I was little, but I don't remember much x)

Other than yesterday's outing, I was either babysitting or working. It wasn't that fun. The week in general was kinda lame, but I had so much fun yesterday! Nice weather too!

Oh yeah, my driving school called me 'cause they cancelled my driving class, and I was like "dawg y". I need to finish, or I pay an extra fee, which is something I don't really want. I have until August, but it's still annoying.

I wanted to make scarves again, MAYBE TO MAKE A LITTLE SIDE MONEY, HAHAHAHAHAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. I'm evil ._.

On our way home, my friends and I were discussing if we should move in to an apartment near school in like a year or so. Personally, I don't mind moving near school, because it's less of a hassle getting there. And it would be a nice experience too :)

We'll see. I still have a heavy schedule this week for work, BUT SOON I'LL BE FREE QQ

GOD SAVE ME.

Alice Lieberg

Alice Rants: Final Fantasy - Brave Exvius

Hello!

I'm sure you've all watched E3, but if you didn't, Square made a new Final Fantasy game! It's for mobile devices, and it's very similar to the older Final Fantasies, with a few tweaks here and there that make the game, JUST SO FUN TO PLAY.

I'm not gonna make this too complicated, but I'll get to the important stuff for sure :)

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First things first, this game is 100% FREE-TO-PLAY. I am not too far in the game, so if that changes, I'm sorry ._.

But so far, you can experience the game without having to spend a thing :D Which is nice 'cause Square overprices everything.

You enter the story with your two protagonists, Rain and Lasswell, and they on some ship, some girl (Fina) appears outta nowhere and says the the world is in danger. OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO, SPOOKY. Yeah, it's the basic RPG story haha. The crystals are back too :)

Even though the story is a bit... cliche, it is very reminiscent of the old Final Fantasy, which brings a smile to my face. I feel like these days, the story gets further and further away from the crystal, but eh... ANYWAYS, YOU KNOW HOW I FEEL.

Music is as good as ever, I love Final Fantasy music :) It's really cool how it's an "old' game, but the music is HD af <3

Graphics-wise, it's the normal SNES or pre FF7 graphics, but the cutscenes ARE SO HOT. So are the summons :)

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Leveling up, you can level them up the normal way (by fighting battles), or ENHANCING THEM WITH CACTUARS. Very similar to Summoners War. WITH THAT COMPARISON, you get more allies by summoning them. I KINDA LUCKED OUT WITH MY SUMMONS, SO DON'T LOOK AT ME PLZ. Generally, you'd get 3-star summons with the featured summons, BUT I GOT A BUNCH OF 4-STARS AND A 5-STAR.

There's also an exp dungeon, a material dungeon, a money dungeon... YEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

I guess the only kicker would be that's it's an energy based-game, but I barely notice it. I don't really like binging on games too quickly, so I can follow the story with the energy system just fine. You also need Internet to play this game. Like a WiFi connection.

The battle system, it's turn-based, but a lot faster, but at the same time, you can take your time and think about doing stuff :) BASICALLY GOOD FOR LITTLE OL' IMPATIENT ME.

GO TRY IT. I'm really having fun with this game, without spending a dime :)

Story's okay, music's great, battle system pretty good, GRAPHICS ARE PERF.

8/10?

I'M DOING THIS QUICKLY OKAY? I'M NOT REVIEWING IT, I'M GIVING YOU WHAT I THINK QQ

Alice Lieberg

UPDATE AGAIN

Hi-llow :3

((This girl looks really hot btw, not gunna lie))

I've been good, more than ever actually :) 

I've really begun to get closer to my family, or things have been better. My parents got into a HUGE FIGHT the other day, and I cried, but my mom stayed with me until I stopped crying, and I'm better now. We've started talking about moving into a smaller house, I don't mind, but I don't wanna be far :(

Also, I went to a K-BBQ place with my boyfriend today. The plan was, he wanted to treat me to food, but his card didn't work, so I ended up paying for half XD 

He felt so bad, that he bought me stuff at Dollarama <3 , and bubble tea :)

Um, so about MY YOUTUBE. My friends are playing less League now, and when they do play, they're not really having fun, sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo, it's a bit boring. I could record Let's Plays, but I'm really boring LOL. I'm still gonna try, I'm getting better Internet soon too, so maybe I could stream better games :) (I PLAY OVERWATCH, BUT I SUCK <3)

Guys, I've said this before, and I'll keep saying it, but don't give up on your dreams. If you've never tried, then you have no reason to give up. 

I think I should make weekly posts here? WHAT DO YOU THINK?

Alice Lieberg

Things to consider

Hello guys :D

I don't think I'm gonna make my goal of 10k ._.

I mean, I'm still saving, but I'M ALSO BUYING 'CAUSE I WANT SHIT ;A;
I think I'm not saving as much 'cause I don't need this money to sustain lol

ALSO, I'M CALLING IN SICK FOR THE FIRST TIME 'CAUSE I WANNA PARTY ;A;
I've never been to a party at all, so I really wanna go haha. I felt guilty for a bit, but I'm getting better XD

I LOVE BEING ON VACATION. I CAN PLAY MY RPGS AND WATCH MY ANIME AND GO OUT ;A; I've been playing Tales of the Abyss, been watching TONNES OF ANIME, and been going out *U*

I wanna bum. BUM FOREVER. And make money XD

Alice Lieberg

The world is going to shit :/

Hey guys,

Did you hear about the recent events?

I've never really had a special attachment to this world, I care about myself, and the world around me a lot more. But the world outside of my own? I don't usually care.

But things are starting to become worse in the world outside of mine, it scares me. The case of Brock Turner disgusts me to no end. It proves how much money matters in this world. Honestly, it scares me because I tend to think of the worst, and if something like this happens to me, I would... I wouldn't know what to do :/

Then, there's the death of Cristina Grimmie. I didn't really know her, but when I hear about someone so young dying, it hurts my heart. People die everyday, some people live right besides death, and yet, this shouldn't be what we are used to. It's not her talents that made her death tragic, it's her death that made it tragic. Human life is precious, even if you're not worth a lot money-wise, you only have that one life. Lose it, and it's over. Even if you believe in reincarnation like I do, you never relive the same life. Never throw away your life, and don't throw away someone else's.

Finally, there's the massacre at the gay parade. Why can't people accept that others are different? Why is it a sin to be gay? A sin to love another human, what a dumbass sin. What difference does it make in your life if someone is gay?

I wanted to be a game developer, to make my own world filled with light and hope. As stupid as that sounds, the world one can create in a video game can be so much more beautiful than the world we live in, and that is so tragic.

Are you guys satisfied with the world we live in? I believe we can make a chance. The moment most people understand to accept each other, we'll already be taking a step forward.

Alice Lieberg

Work status :O

HELLOOOOOOOOOOOOO

I've spent a lot lately, mostly on a new monitor haha. I had a ten-inch monitor before, so I was LIVING BY SQUINTING. I work a lot, for money. I don't really mind the job, but sometimes, I get irritated.

I feel like some of my coworkers are blackmailing me 'cause my boyfriend works at my place now, but my mom isn't supposed to know :/

To be honest, I'm positive I can lie about it, but if word gets out either way, I'll ask my sister for help.

I cry so easily, it's scary. But I'm working on myself, kinda. I'm still trying to get slimmer, I think it's working, someone called me slim the other day <3

MONEY MONEY MONEY.

My boyfriend did well at work though :)
I'm so happy he got a job, yay~ And he's doing well too, so I'm so proud of him <3

In other news,

I'M GONNA WATCH THIS. I'M SO EXCITED. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

Alice Lieberg

I started streaming a bit :D

Hello guys :D

Well, I haven't been on my YouTube channel recently, 'cause if you noticed, my boyfriend records the footage, not me, AND I KINDA KEEP FORGETTING TO HAND HIM MY USB QQ.

But yeah, I streamed. I-IF YOU WANNA SUPPORT ME, JUST FOLLOW ME ON TWITCH. DONATE :O ((I don't have a donation button, I'll figure that out eventually lol))

But yeah :3 Come watch me play *U*

My Twitch channel =3

Alice Lieberg

I almost got into a car accident ._.

Hi guys!

Yeah, I almost went BOOM. I'm still learning how to drive, and when I panic, I don't really know what to do. Basically, this car was turning, but he didn't turn on his blinker, and I almost whammed into him QQ

I was so scared, I slammed on my breaks, my dad honked for me. Yeah.

I'm so glad to be alive. ._.
I'm barely religious, but God must be looking out for me huh. Also, I've been having only bad dreams recently. They're all weird, I'm so scared ._.

IN OTHER NEWS, IT'S MOTHER'S DAY :D

Did you guys remember to say thanks to your moms? Some of you may not even have moms, or they abandoned you, of some of you have bad moms, for that, you can say thanks to the people who took care of you. Or thanks to the world. DON'T GIVE UP.

Anyways, toodles~

Alice Lieberg