Finals are upon us! And happiness issues

Hi guys~

I know I'm highly inactive, but IT'S OKAY. MY BLOG MY RULES.

Finals are upon us, and honestly, my grades for the most part are fine. JUST GOTTA TRY HARD. I GO HARD IN THE P-

But anyways, yeah. I'm doing fine. Mostly :)
I've gotten into a fight with someone, and was feeling like poop for a while, and sought consult from a few close friends of mine. And slowly, I started realizing how dependent I am of others. Or maybe how sensitive I am, it's all the same OTL

The fight was about me whining, and he was pointing out a lot of my flaws, and I just felt so uncomfortable. I don't know if my flaws are what defines me to other people, but I wouldn't like to think so. Everyone has flaws, to have someone call them out when you're arguing is common, but not something that's particularly flattering.

I've been trying to improve myself, for my own benefit, but also so that other people can accept me for who I am. It sounds a bit silly, but after my huge down last year, I wanted to improve myself so much. I was either reliant on others to be happy, or so envious of other people's skills that I was always so miserable with myself. I knew I needed to change.

First thing was first was to get my work ethics back up, which for the most part, seems to be working. That's how my grades shot back up after all. I wanted to lose some weight too. For the most part, I didn't really gain that much, but I like my body a certain way. I'm now at my normal body type, and I still eat like always, so nothing really changed. I've also taken interest in different hobbies and skills, to further try to improve myself. I realized that I give up on things too quickly, that's why I wanted to acquire different skills and not give up this time.

But when it comes down to it, I really need to "learn how to be happy". And this REALLY is a problem in my life. Other people affect me so much, because when I get insulted, or thrown shade at, it reminds me of all of the bad things I'm working to get rid of, and I haven't really given up on them. Everyone has their own weaknesses and strengths, and I do acknowledge that to be really happy, you need to be happy with yourself, and I haven't reached that yet. In some ways, I have. I really think I'm pretty for once. After last year's phase of my family "fat-shaming" me, I really hated my body. I didn't really gain too much weight, but I guess they were scared that I would gain more. I really do believe in my looks a lot more now. As for my psychological or... personality flaws, not so much.

Some people see my flaws as something to work on, and some people see my flaws as... reasons to pick fights or to not hang out with me. And the latter always gets to me. It's as though those people are mirrors to the awful parts of myself, and I can't stand looking at that for too long.

I cut some people off again, I don't want to stay away from them permanently, but I want time to find myself properly this time. My boyfriend was discussing how I can go about all of this, and I think this was the best course of action to take for a while.

DON'T GET ME WRONG THOUGH, I'M NOT SEVERELY UNHAPPY, I ENJOY LIFE SO MUCH, 'CAUSE THERE'S SO MUCH TO SEE EVERYDAY. But, I think this is my way of... fitting in with life, as great and as bad as it gets. Thanks for reading :)

Alice Lieberg

UNLUCKYYYYYYYYYYY

HELLOOOOOO

Well, yeah, I ran into problems lol

I cried too, 'cause I got into a fight with my boyfriend :(
Basically, all my pics got erased from my phone, my new laptop died (I fixed it now though).

Soon, I have my driving test, and then I have dentist, I'm getting Invisalign, 'cause my teeth be ugly xD

University is going smoothly, I'm pretty happy :)

As for my Fire Emblem Rant, I'm gonna post it on YouTube, look forward to it :D

Alice Lieberg

I made an Danganronpers thingy

Hello~

I'm great, I made a 1 min teaser for a VN I might never finish LMAO

DANGANRONPA ZERO VN

Also, still working on that FE:Fates rant, GET READY.

Umm, that's it I guess. School is okay, I'm taking it more seriously, so I really hope I do well ><
I ALSO DID A JOB INTERVIEW. I THINK I DID WELL. NOT SURE. #PLSHIREME

Tell me what you think about my LITERALLY TINY VN, THX

Alice Lieberg

I have school again

Helloooooooooooo~

Well, school started again xD

Honestly, I don't mind, but I really am not looking forward to all my assignments and tests. I'm also trying to make a game, and to continue my YouTube channel again. I'm really dead inside.

I have a "Let's Play" going, but when I have time, I'm trying to upload content that involves more editing, 'cause Let's Plays aren't for everyone :/

League and Overwatch videos so far. I'll try to upload weekly, but as you all know, I'm dead inside, so WHO KNOWS WHAT'S GONNA HAPPEN DOWN THE LINE.

My first class was pretty mundane. I got bored so fast ._.
I met someone though, that I never saw irl, but photos of 'cause he's a friend of my friend XD
Very briefly, but I still met them haha

I wanna make a rant about Fire Emblem Fates, honestly, I HAVE A LOT TO SAY, THAT MIGHT NOT BE ALIGNED WITH THE OPINIONS OF MANY.

Alice Lieberg

NEW JOB MAYBE (PLS)

Hello~

I got a job offer! It's for a receptionist job, and I really hope I don't screw up :D

Other than that, umm... Oh, I got to watch "Don't Breathe". It's a really good thriller/horror, everyone needs to check it out :D

I also finished Steins;Gate. Oh my God, that sh*t's a masterpiece. ._.
Maybe I'll do one of my mini-reviews on that.

I also almost broke up with my boyfriend. We had some problems, and I kept them to myself :/
Well, we talked, and yeah, he said he was sorry for all the things that made me sad. I kept apologizing too, since I didn't go to talk to him. Hopefully things work out :)

My mom also made me a scarf~ It's really cute and BLUE. IT'S BLUE GUYS. *cries forever*

I wanna make new YouTube videos and stream ._.
SCHOOL COMING AND I'M LAZY. I'LL MAKE A VIDEO BEFORE I START SCHOOL I PROMISE GUYS.




Toodles~

Alice Lieberg

I cried again

My family is not getting better. I think they're indulging in their own pride. I don't know what to do. I don't want to talk to my family. It hurts.

K-BBQ Embarrassment ._.

Hello~

I had the BEST K-BBQ to offer in Montreal. IT WAS SO GOOD. IT WAS LIKE MEAT HEAVEN.
It was a place called "Mon Ami", and... IT WAS SO GOOD. THE FOOD WAS SEASONED PERFECTLY.

But something really embarrassing happened :S
Basically, one of my friends brought his... friend. A girl. And she kept yelling about everything ><
She complained about the price so much ><
She even dropped a place on the ground and refused to pick it up 'cause she said it wasn't her job to pick it up ><

But the food was so good! *sigh*
Go check it out :D

Also, I have to pay for my phone bill now XD
#firstworldproblems

Alice Lieberg

Transfer students wooooooooooooooo~

Hi guys :D

For another time this year, I met Japanese transfer students :D
Well, socially-awkward me just saw in a corner alone, until someone joined me. Haha, we were both not really wanting to talk to new people ^^'

It was fun, they all seem really nice, but I really don't see me being 100% friends with them, so I feel so lazy .-.

Tomorrow, I'm gonna go to a picnic :D
Iunno what I'm gonna make though, maybe fresh-fruit salad. I'm still looking forward to it though :)

Also, I STILL LIKE LEAGUE OF LEGENDS, BUT PEOPLE KEEP DISSIN' MY TASTE, AND IT'S PISSING ME OFF. My friends basically don't play League anymore, but they play Overwatch, and they keep mocking me for still liking League :/

It's so f*cking annoying. Why can't you stfu and just be okay that I still play League :/
I understand if you don't like the game anymore, but putting someone down because they still play is f*cking dumb.

Alice Lieberg

POST NUMBER 100 WOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Hello~

Just married my hubby again <3

He's so adorable~ If he were real, I'd probably... yeah.

In other news, I'M CURED. FROM THAT AWFUL VIRUS. ;A;
I can eat solid foods again, and talk properly, and close my mouth without it hurting, AND NO MORE 100 COLD CORES IN MY MOUTH ;A;

I was never that sick, but getting sick got me suuuuuuuuuuuuuuper sad, and it reminded me of how much I don't really like my job. People are really rude, especially when I got sick. I rarely call in sick, like, someone calls in sick once a month, I call in sick... once in a blue moon, and I'm the one who gets yelled at :/

Anyways, ALL IS GOOD. I STILL HAVE TO BABYSIT. GOOD BYE.

Alice Lieberg

I'M SICK AAAAAAAAAAAA

Hello!!!!!

I'm dying plz help

This all started last Saturday, I had a really high fever and a migraine. AND I WAS AT WORK. Noises and light pained me, so I asked to go home, but they didn't want to let me go home unless I had a replacement, so my mom volunteered. My mom replaced me, I went home, ONLY TO FEEL HOT AND COLD, VOMIT, AND NOT BEING TO EAT FOOD PROPERLY.

Also, my coworker screamed at me that day for wanting to go home. He was saying stuff like, you look fine, you ain't on the floor atm. He's usually not mean. The next day, my family didn't really want me to work, but I ended up going 'cause I was scared of being yelled at ><

Anyways, NOW MY MOUTH IS FILLED WITH COLD SORES OR SOMETHING SIMILAR. LIKE THE WHOLE MOUTH. NOT JUST MY LIPS. MY.  WHOLE. MOUTH. And my throat is sore :(

I can't eat solid foods without dying. Passing it through my throat is hell. I could chew it more, but like I said, my whole mouth is currently dead. including my tongue, chewing things also hurts :(

I went to the pharmacist, but he said my sickness will probably last a week, with or without medicine, so my mom didn't get me any. I wanted some, JUST SO I CAN EAT SOLID FOODS FOR AT LEAST A MOMENT, BUT SHE SAID IT WAS A WASTE OF MONEY QQ

So yeah. Talking and eating, no. SWALLOWING HURTS. IT HURTS TO SWALLOW SALIVA ;A;

I got someone to replace me at work tomorrow, but I have to go the day after probably.
I WANT THE MONEY, BUT MY MOUTH REALLY HURTS. I CAN'T EVEN SMILE WITHOUT HURTING MY MOUTH QQ

ANYWHO, I HOPE THIS GETS BETTER SOON. I DON'T FEEL THAT ILL, BUT MY MOUTH REALLY HURTS, SO I CAN'T EAT DA GUD FUD AND MAKE THE MONEYS ;A;

Toodles~

Alice Lieberg

Calypso :D

Hi guys :D

Did you ever go to Calypso? I did yesterday :)

Well, I did go a while ago, when I was little, but I don't remember much x)

Other than yesterday's outing, I was either babysitting or working. It wasn't that fun. The week in general was kinda lame, but I had so much fun yesterday! Nice weather too!

Oh yeah, my driving school called me 'cause they cancelled my driving class, and I was like "dawg y". I need to finish, or I pay an extra fee, which is something I don't really want. I have until August, but it's still annoying.

I wanted to make scarves again, MAYBE TO MAKE A LITTLE SIDE MONEY, HAHAHAHAHAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. I'm evil ._.

On our way home, my friends and I were discussing if we should move in to an apartment near school in like a year or so. Personally, I don't mind moving near school, because it's less of a hassle getting there. And it would be a nice experience too :)

We'll see. I still have a heavy schedule this week for work, BUT SOON I'LL BE FREE QQ

GOD SAVE ME.

Alice Lieberg

Alice Rants: Final Fantasy - Brave Exvius

Hello!

I'm sure you've all watched E3, but if you didn't, Square made a new Final Fantasy game! It's for mobile devices, and it's very similar to the older Final Fantasies, with a few tweaks here and there that make the game, JUST SO FUN TO PLAY.

I'm not gonna make this too complicated, but I'll get to the important stuff for sure :)

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First things first, this game is 100% FREE-TO-PLAY. I am not too far in the game, so if that changes, I'm sorry ._.

But so far, you can experience the game without having to spend a thing :D Which is nice 'cause Square overprices everything.

You enter the story with your two protagonists, Rain and Lasswell, and they on some ship, some girl (Fina) appears outta nowhere and says the the world is in danger. OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO, SPOOKY. Yeah, it's the basic RPG story haha. The crystals are back too :)

Even though the story is a bit... cliche, it is very reminiscent of the old Final Fantasy, which brings a smile to my face. I feel like these days, the story gets further and further away from the crystal, but eh... ANYWAYS, YOU KNOW HOW I FEEL.

Music is as good as ever, I love Final Fantasy music :) It's really cool how it's an "old' game, but the music is HD af <3

Graphics-wise, it's the normal SNES or pre FF7 graphics, but the cutscenes ARE SO HOT. So are the summons :)

 --

Leveling up, you can level them up the normal way (by fighting battles), or ENHANCING THEM WITH CACTUARS. Very similar to Summoners War. WITH THAT COMPARISON, you get more allies by summoning them. I KINDA LUCKED OUT WITH MY SUMMONS, SO DON'T LOOK AT ME PLZ. Generally, you'd get 3-star summons with the featured summons, BUT I GOT A BUNCH OF 4-STARS AND A 5-STAR.

There's also an exp dungeon, a material dungeon, a money dungeon... YEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

I guess the only kicker would be that's it's an energy based-game, but I barely notice it. I don't really like binging on games too quickly, so I can follow the story with the energy system just fine. You also need Internet to play this game. Like a WiFi connection.

The battle system, it's turn-based, but a lot faster, but at the same time, you can take your time and think about doing stuff :) BASICALLY GOOD FOR LITTLE OL' IMPATIENT ME.

GO TRY IT. I'm really having fun with this game, without spending a dime :)

Story's okay, music's great, battle system pretty good, GRAPHICS ARE PERF.

8/10?

I'M DOING THIS QUICKLY OKAY? I'M NOT REVIEWING IT, I'M GIVING YOU WHAT I THINK QQ

Alice Lieberg

UPDATE AGAIN

Hi-llow :3

((This girl looks really hot btw, not gunna lie))

I've been good, more than ever actually :) 

I've really begun to get closer to my family, or things have been better. My parents got into a HUGE FIGHT the other day, and I cried, but my mom stayed with me until I stopped crying, and I'm better now. We've started talking about moving into a smaller house, I don't mind, but I don't wanna be far :(

Also, I went to a K-BBQ place with my boyfriend today. The plan was, he wanted to treat me to food, but his card didn't work, so I ended up paying for half XD 

He felt so bad, that he bought me stuff at Dollarama <3 , and bubble tea :)

Um, so about MY YOUTUBE. My friends are playing less League now, and when they do play, they're not really having fun, sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo, it's a bit boring. I could record Let's Plays, but I'm really boring LOL. I'm still gonna try, I'm getting better Internet soon too, so maybe I could stream better games :) (I PLAY OVERWATCH, BUT I SUCK <3)

Guys, I've said this before, and I'll keep saying it, but don't give up on your dreams. If you've never tried, then you have no reason to give up. 

I think I should make weekly posts here? WHAT DO YOU THINK?

Alice Lieberg

Things to consider

Hello guys :D

I don't think I'm gonna make my goal of 10k ._.

I mean, I'm still saving, but I'M ALSO BUYING 'CAUSE I WANT SHIT ;A;
I think I'm not saving as much 'cause I don't need this money to sustain lol

ALSO, I'M CALLING IN SICK FOR THE FIRST TIME 'CAUSE I WANNA PARTY ;A;
I've never been to a party at all, so I really wanna go haha. I felt guilty for a bit, but I'm getting better XD

I LOVE BEING ON VACATION. I CAN PLAY MY RPGS AND WATCH MY ANIME AND GO OUT ;A; I've been playing Tales of the Abyss, been watching TONNES OF ANIME, and been going out *U*

I wanna bum. BUM FOREVER. And make money XD

Alice Lieberg

The world is going to shit :/

Hey guys,

Did you hear about the recent events?

I've never really had a special attachment to this world, I care about myself, and the world around me a lot more. But the world outside of my own? I don't usually care.

But things are starting to become worse in the world outside of mine, it scares me. The case of Brock Turner disgusts me to no end. It proves how much money matters in this world. Honestly, it scares me because I tend to think of the worst, and if something like this happens to me, I would... I wouldn't know what to do :/

Then, there's the death of Cristina Grimmie. I didn't really know her, but when I hear about someone so young dying, it hurts my heart. People die everyday, some people live right besides death, and yet, this shouldn't be what we are used to. It's not her talents that made her death tragic, it's her death that made it tragic. Human life is precious, even if you're not worth a lot money-wise, you only have that one life. Lose it, and it's over. Even if you believe in reincarnation like I do, you never relive the same life. Never throw away your life, and don't throw away someone else's.

Finally, there's the massacre at the gay parade. Why can't people accept that others are different? Why is it a sin to be gay? A sin to love another human, what a dumbass sin. What difference does it make in your life if someone is gay?

I wanted to be a game developer, to make my own world filled with light and hope. As stupid as that sounds, the world one can create in a video game can be so much more beautiful than the world we live in, and that is so tragic.

Are you guys satisfied with the world we live in? I believe we can make a chance. The moment most people understand to accept each other, we'll already be taking a step forward.

Alice Lieberg

Work status :O

HELLOOOOOOOOOOOOO

I've spent a lot lately, mostly on a new monitor haha. I had a ten-inch monitor before, so I was LIVING BY SQUINTING. I work a lot, for money. I don't really mind the job, but sometimes, I get irritated.

I feel like some of my coworkers are blackmailing me 'cause my boyfriend works at my place now, but my mom isn't supposed to know :/

To be honest, I'm positive I can lie about it, but if word gets out either way, I'll ask my sister for help.

I cry so easily, it's scary. But I'm working on myself, kinda. I'm still trying to get slimmer, I think it's working, someone called me slim the other day <3

MONEY MONEY MONEY.

My boyfriend did well at work though :)
I'm so happy he got a job, yay~ And he's doing well too, so I'm so proud of him <3

In other news,

I'M GONNA WATCH THIS. I'M SO EXCITED. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

Alice Lieberg

I started streaming a bit :D

Hello guys :D

Well, I haven't been on my YouTube channel recently, 'cause if you noticed, my boyfriend records the footage, not me, AND I KINDA KEEP FORGETTING TO HAND HIM MY USB QQ.

But yeah, I streamed. I-IF YOU WANNA SUPPORT ME, JUST FOLLOW ME ON TWITCH. DONATE :O ((I don't have a donation button, I'll figure that out eventually lol))

But yeah :3 Come watch me play *U*

My Twitch channel =3

Alice Lieberg

I almost got into a car accident ._.

Hi guys!

Yeah, I almost went BOOM. I'm still learning how to drive, and when I panic, I don't really know what to do. Basically, this car was turning, but he didn't turn on his blinker, and I almost whammed into him QQ

I was so scared, I slammed on my breaks, my dad honked for me. Yeah.

I'm so glad to be alive. ._.
I'm barely religious, but God must be looking out for me huh. Also, I've been having only bad dreams recently. They're all weird, I'm so scared ._.

IN OTHER NEWS, IT'S MOTHER'S DAY :D

Did you guys remember to say thanks to your moms? Some of you may not even have moms, or they abandoned you, of some of you have bad moms, for that, you can say thanks to the people who took care of you. Or thanks to the world. DON'T GIVE UP.

Anyways, toodles~

Alice Lieberg

MONEY MONEY MONEY

Hello! 

I've committed to working a bit more until my boyfriend gets outta school. Which is just 2 weeks from now. MONEY MONEY MONEY. 

I don't get much at this job, and I need to payback people QQ 

BUT I'M STILL IN THE POSITIVE. THAT'S ALL THAT MATTERS :D

Things get darker from here, so read at your will XD

I don't really get the concept of family. I don't think my family was particularly close growing up, we all had our moments of course. I'd say my family was really strict growing up, I remember a lot of crying, a lot of lectures about my grades and attitude, beatings, stuff like that. I did have the luxury of attending school, being raised in a home and having meals all my life. I'm not stupid to think that my life was the worse thing that could've been. 

What I think though, is that they don't really know how to parent. Taking care of a child is one thing, showing affection is another right? Also, my sisters are all more than 10 years older than me, and I always felt like I annoyed them as I grew up. 

Anyways, the other day, I got into another argument with my family. It was something minor, but they blew it up so much that I got pissed. Basically, I was holding the door open for my family, but as I was leaving, my finger got stuck 'cause my dad was in the way, so I screamed "Ow!". 

WELL SEE, THAT'S WHEN THINGS TURNED DOWNHILL. 

"Why did you scream?"

"My finger got stuck 'cause dad was in the way!" 

"Dad didn't mean to do it, don't be mad at him."

?

??

???

I WAS HONESTLY SO CONFUSED. 

"I screamed 'cause it hurt, not 'cause of that. It just hurt!"

"Well, that's still no reason to make a big deal out of it. There are worse things in life."

?

DO YOU UNDERSTAND WHY I WAS CONFUSED. Iunno. I give reactions to when things hurt, iunno 'bout you. 

Things escalated from there, and I kinda wished they'd all die out loud. Yeah, I know, das bad. I was mad af. 

Like first of all, I don't know why y'all yelling at me. I just said "Ow", LOUDLY, I ADMIT, BUT HEY, IT HURT. I WASN'T BLAMING MY DAD, IT JUST HURT.

Even my dad got on my case, and was like: "If it hurts so much, f*cking cry."

Like goddamn. Until I cursed their existence, I don't see what I did wrong. Imagine having 4 people after your ass, just 'cause your finger hurt a little bit ._. Well, a lot at the time of impact XD

But anywho, that's that. 

Oh, I'm really scared of raising a child. One, childbirth frightens me a lot and I am SUPER SENSITIVE TO PAIN.

Secondly, the other day, my sister's kid was crying a lot at night, and the only thing that came to mind was beating that kid 'till she shut up, and when I thought of that, I started crying silently so much. 

It frightens me, I don't want to do that to anyone I love. And the fact that that was the only solution I could think of was sad. I'm so scared. I don't want to have kids if those are the only thoughts in my head. I told my boyfriend that I was scared of having kids, 'cause I'm scared I'll hurt them in a way that may parents did, and he told me that's what he was there for. ;~;

Anywho, looking forward to my life :D

I need to make more YouTube videos, but my boyfriend records them, and he's been WORKING HARD. MY BABY ;A;

Toodles~

Alice Lieberg

Mini Rant of FE: Fates

HELLOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

My children.

As you may or may not know, I've been a small-time FE fan, and I just wanna talk about it for a bit. Okay? 3, 2, 1, GO :D

I somewhat like that you're a main character, though I felt like that was the case in FE:Awakening, but that's not the public opinion ^^'

I feel like customization went up and down though. I felt like the customization in Awakening was more to my liking, but it's all personal. I do like that you can change your hairstyle when you want to though, or accessories. You can buy accessories in this game, which is super fun XD

HOW THE CHILDREN IN THIS GAME WORKED WAS STUPID. My opinion anyways. You're telling me that THESE PEOPLE HAD THE TIME TO GO 9 MONTHS INTO PREGNANCY, WITHOUT ANY RETRIBUTIONS IN THIS WAR? Then they ditch their kids into some realm where they can age faster. Nice. ._.

The lack of face-petting and dual audio pissed me off. I heard that Renka's (Aqua singing VA in Japan) company was a b*tch about her voice being used in NA, so we don't have Japanese voices. smh. I don't mind English VAs, but the ones in this game seem a bit lazier than in Awakening. plus I only liked Laslow's/Inigo's Japanese VA ;A;

While I do appreciate the fact that the game was brought here, it really was a shame to see that certain little features in the game were removed. Hey, I can express my opinion too. Seriously though, removing controversial features might be a thing, but Nintendo can't be considered a "baby" company anymore :/

They released ZombieU, and in my opinion, that harms people more than performing face-petting. I really REALLY think it's a shame, 'cause it was completely and utterly optional, so people b*tching about it was a slap to the face. I don't think Nintendo really told us why they removed the feature, but I still am butthurt about it. And I really hate how people respond or just talk about this.

It's the Internet though, so savageness is expected, but like... *sigh*

When people who say: "WHY DON'T YOU LEARN JAPANESE, AND JUST BUY THE ORIGINAL GAME"

I get so mad at this statement. For me at least, I AM LEARNING JAPANESE, AND I'VE SPOKEN TO ACTUAL JAPANESE PEOPLE. IT'S NOT AS EASY AS BUYING AN IMPORTED GAME. ya haf to hack your 3DS or buy a Japanese one. And even then, you can't play with people in your region, which is a buzzkill. And buying DLC is a pain. *sigh*

Why is b*tching about lost features a bad thing? Let's face it, we're paying the same amount for less content, albeit it being a pretty worthless feature, it's still lost. And it's no longer optional, since I can no longer access it. If I'm buying a product, I am allowed to criticize it. I, for one, bought both (I couldn't get my hands on a Special Edition QQ)

And the people who wanted to boycott the game, YOU'RE PART OF THE PROBLEM. Seriously guys. They didn't butcher the game THAT MUCH to warrant a boycott. It's still FE. Besides, think about it. Nintendo's future does not rest on this one game. A console boycott is a bigger deal than a game boycott. MUCH BIGGER.

Losing money over a game is a very small investment lost, and all they have to do is just... not import games. Guys, think logically ._.

Bathing suits lost too lmao. That makes no sense to me whatsoever haha. Imagine if they put a curtain on Camilla's boobs XD

It was a fun game though. Things are so much more balanced than Awakening XD

Alice Lieberg

Spoil yourself

Hello everyone!

How have you all been? I've been dead, uni is a lot of work. I've been trying to work more, but sometimes I'm dead inside haha

Anyways, as you may all know, I have a job, and I really SLAVE AT IT. Like, this place works me 'till I die. But things are getting better, I made some allies, so I can sometimes get my shift covered. ._.

Anyways, in terms of money, due to me being on this STRICT SPENDING REGIMENT, I actually save quite a bit. THOUGH MY OPUS IS F*CKING 100 BUCKS DUE TO THE TRAIN PASS OPUS, BUT I'M SOMEHOW ALIVE. F*cking train passes though, plus one of my days are SUPER LATE, SO I END UP SPENDING FOR FOOD THAT DAY 'CAUSE I'M A HUNGRY B*TCH.

But yeah, I saved up quite a bit, and this upcoming month, I make A LOT MORE THAN USUAL 'CAUSE I TOOK MY MOM'S SHIFTS, HUEHUEHUE will I even do them all though

I have exams, I need to study lots, but my exams end before the money is over, so I'll be MONEY MAKIN'

My goal is 10k, well, in my bank account I mean, AND IT MIGHT BE POSSIBLE? IUNNO, THIS SUMMER LOOKS PROMISING-ISH IF I HAVE NO FRIENDS. but I do so I mean rip

And what I'd like to say is, unless you're butt-poor, spend on yourself. At least while you're young and have the luxury to do so. And I don't mean like, spend all your money away, like, think of your future a bit yo XD

What I mean is that, I have a boyfriend, I think that's a point I got across a while ago XD

But he has no part-time job, and so no money income. He used to buy me gifts REALLY OFTEN, to the point where I felt REALLY BAD, 'cause we all poor in this world nig XD 

But now he doesn't, and I started feeling like, poo. Why? 'cause I'm a shallow b*tch LOL

But seriously, haven't we all dreamed of being spoiled by a loved one? I have, and I started to realize that I didn't need to be. He showers me in love every day, and for that, I am so grateful <3 (gay af LOL) But the shallow whore in me was very demanding of him, and wanted him to spend on me. 

I went to a friend, and said I realized what a demon I became. Maybe not in those exact words, but you get the point. She told me that I saved up money, why not spoil myself? And AFTER THAT, I FELT SO. SO MUCH BETTER.

Guys, you work hard for that money, treat yourself once in a while. To a nice game that you wanted, or those cute pairs of shoes (I'm so picky with shoes, I generally stick with one pair LOL). In any case, treat yourself to something nice. Saving up is good, don't get me wrong. I SAVE UP THE MOST IN MY GROUP OF FRIENDS, AND THAT'S SAD 'CAUSE I THINK I SPEND A LOT 'CAUSE I'M A HUNGRY HUNGRY HIPPO. I've jumped to 4k recently, so I'm super happy :) 

I make around... 300? Every paycheck? I used to make more, 'CAUSE I WAS EXTORTIONED, but yeah, I make 300 every 2 weeks now, on minimum wage. More or less actually, but whatever, you get the picture XD I have to pay FOR THAT STUPID OPUS, train passes are OP guys, IT'S A WORTH INVESTMENT, BUT GODDAMN IT'S EXPENSIVE. I'm so happy my sister helps me with my cellphone bill ._. There's been food at home too, and things are better at home, so I'm glad :)

Oh yeah, and I spent on Fates, and ALL THE DLC, AND A NEW 3DS FIRE EMBLEM EDITION, GUYS I'M THE BEST AT SAVING MONEY OBVIOUSLY ;A;

If I didn't spend on that, I'D BE ON MY WAY TO 5K YAY ME

But the bottom line is, spend your money, but make sure you're saving up too :)

I NEVER SPENT MORE THAN MY PAYCHECK OKAY? USUALLY I ONLY SPEND 100 ON IT FOR MY OPUS SHH

Alice Lieberg

My blog is a little less private now XD

Hello again~

((I remember this anime, omg, I love her, she's so stupid XD))

Well, recently I revealed my blog on Facebook, since I had one post in particular I needed to show certain people. Well, they didn't exactly react fabulously, but I did get to talk to them, so that's nice. Anywho, I'll probably feel weird writing on here for a while, but it's my personal blog anyways XD

I just want to make a disclaimer, I'm starting to try to mend things with my family, but paths are never straight lines, and this one isn't either. ANYWHO, MY LIFE IS A BIT BORING, SO LET'S MOVE ON :D

As some of you may know, I'm in Uni now :D

Uni is an experience to behold. To be very honest, unless it's a core class of mine, it bores me immensely. I made one friend though, she's really nice (AND SOMEHOW SHE LIKES ANIME AND LEAGUE, I THINK I HIT A GOLDMINE :DDDD). But anyways, there's a lot of freedom at Uni, and I mean a lot ._.

Teachers give less of a sh*t if you show up or nah, hell, in my Cal 3 class, only half shows up. I get why though, the teacher sucks so much LOL. He teaches math on a Powerpoint, likeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee, k. But my breaks coincide less and less with my friends breaks, I end up visiting my college a lot, since most of my buddies still there lol. Classes are a lot bigger, which stress me out a lot. I can't be in a room with a lot of people sometimes :S

Drama recently occurred though ._.
And to be honest, when people told me about it, I was praying to the GODS ABOVE that I wouldn't be involved, but hey, THERE I WAS.

Gosh golly, yesterday was one hell of a shitstorm XD

I was one my period, so I mostly lay in bed all day. Anywho, this all started with my friends telling me about an event occurring on Snapchat, and GOD, THE DRAMA WAS ALREADY THERE.

Then a few friends were telling me how this all started, and I was like... rip. I knew that my friends and I got over it, so we thought it was over. I guess not, 'cause yesterday was rip ._.

Strawberry was told by Peach she caught her dissing her. I'd like to let you all know that Strawberry probably didn't expect this to happen, nor does she nor I need drama right now. I have exams every week, assignments, and she's pretty busy too. She thought she solved the problem, but lots of my friends got private messages, including me. I have to say though, there was a huge block of text, probably stuff I didn't agree on, but whatever. Peach had to get it out of her. :/

I honestly though. Most of us, or all of us even, got over it long ago. Why we would still talk about it? Iunno, if someone asks me, I'm going to tell them, and I'm perfectly allowed to do so. But I don't even like talking about it that much because it's a boring topic, that's only drama imo. So I only say stuff like, things happened, and we ain't friends anymore. That's that. Like gosh golly, This happened a year ago, it's like a relic of the past now ._.

I remember the wrongdoings that happened on both ends, but seriously, I could give less of a sh*t now. I just don't like it being brought up ._.

Oh, and Peach also talked about having different cliques, but like, we were a giant group of 30-50 depending on the event, it's normal for "cliques" to form. We just... have people we like more, sh*t happens ._.

But anyways, it's another thing of the past. Hopefully this is the last I hear of this, this is like... crying over spilled milk. I don't think anyone who's been with me, supporting me cares anymore. We both lost things at that time, but the thing is, this is how people evolve. If no one goes through hardships, we won't learn from them.

So Peach, if you're reading this, I'll let you know, no one wants to see you sad or hurt anymore. We honestly don't care about the things that happened anymore, but don't be too sad if some of us don't feel comfortable around you, or if we don't want to be friends anymore. You already have wonderful people surrounding you, at your side. It's not about quantity, it's about quality.

SO GUYS, WHEN MY EXAMS ARE OVER, OR WHEN I GIVE LESS OF A SH*T ABOUT SCHOOL, IMMA SING UNPROFESSIONALLY AND POST IT HERE. TOODLES.

Alice Lieberg

I'm sad and hateful, what do you want me to say?

Hello~

I don't really feel like this, but I have considered how life would be without me, and frankly, not much would change. That's just how insignificant one's person's life is. But, I do know that I don't wanna kill myself, I'm scared of death and things will get better eventually. People wouldn't stay sad forever, people live, and they move on.

Recently though, by recently, I mean really recently, things have gone wrong, a bit. I don't really feel at home anymore.

I went out with my sisters the other day, one thing after another happened, and eventually I talked about our parents a bit. One statement, but that brought the biggest shitstorm, and I probably should have never said it. There was a period of time where my parents forgot to leave food behind for me, or thought I would just eat out that day, so there was no food at home, and I ended up eating ramen everyday. Yay~ Healthy eating :D

Well, at the time, maybe I was mad at my parents, but people forget. Plus, I am older now, so I know I can cook food, but I lazy af. ._.

Plus I was at my last semester in college, and I really wanted to pass at the time, since I wanted to move on with my life. But things weren't going well back then, anywhere. I had to spend a lot of time on the computer, since a lot of stuff is online these days, and I spent a lot less time gaming, since my new job took a lot of my time, and studying became a priority to me.

Anyways, when I said that, a shitstorm happened, and frankly, I don't think I should be yelled at for something like that. Let's be real. People forget, and all my sisters are barely at home, or they moved out. So, they couldn't have known. But I got yelled at, a lot. They were saying how parents don't just forget to do that, another person said that my parents are trying to be nicer and I haven't acknowledged that yet, but to be honest, I have.

I'm just not used to it, you know what, my parents weren't the only shitty thing in my life at that time. Everything was, including you guys. I wanted to say that, but I shouldn't always let my emotions get the better of me. But every time I feel like things are getting better, they get worse. And I'm this weak-ass piece of f*ck now, so I cry really often.

Today, I think my sister was still mad at me, but I try not to say anything when people are mad at me, iunno, it just makes things worse most of the time, but I think no matter what I did, things would get worse. She got me McDonalds, and umm... I'm not the best at talking, especially when I know someone is mad at me. I should've said something, now it's way too late, but anyways.

Recap, I asked for a trio, and I wanted to eat it tomorrow, so she said she brought the food, and I didn't say anything, so she got... madder. I started feeling bad, so I tried to eat my food, and I ate the burger, but not the fries, and angrily, and since I'm planning to show this on my Facebook, yes, you said it angrily, and I'll confess now since I suck at talking, I should've said something, but I was scared of getting yelled at more. (I just made it worse though)

So anyways, now I feel really full, and super sad. She started assuming stuff, and saying how I shouldn't just blame her, and you know what, I wasn't. I wasn't saying anything. That causes people to assume stuff, but people shouldn't assume stuff.

Today, as I left my house to get some time for myself, I was thinking how if I ran away, without telling anyone, meaning boyfriend or friends or family, I could live for a week... or more. Maybe a few days. I was... I'm just so tired. I'm back though, 'cause school is important for me if my final answer ten years later is to not look back at my family, or just for my future in general.

I don't feel like safe around some of the people who used to keep me safe, my sisters, and I don't feel safe around the people I was wary around. And I can't just turn to my friends, and drag them into this. I don't know what to do with myself. I wanted to be a cheerful person again, but I f*cking suck at this. I should talk more, but I'm scared of saying anything anymore.

I'm scared that if I keep talking to my friends, they'll get tired of my shit. I'm scared of talking to my own family, for various reasons. I'm scared of talking to my boyfriend, because I know he's busy, and what if he gets annoyed too? He did once when he was stressed :( I don't lie about my own life, unless I was like... young or something.

My birthday is coming up soon, that's pretty cool though. I really want an ice cream cake, so that be really nice. If I don't get one, I'll buy one and share it with a few people :)

I'd like to thank my friends for being there for me though. When I cried on Skype, I'm not sure how annoyed they were, but I'm grateful that they were trying to cheer me up at the time (for the people reading this, it was a while ago). And no matter what you guys think, I'm happy you're trying to be nice to me again, meaning my family. Or just trying to make sure I see it more, I just suck at expressing myself, and I don't know how, and I've always felt awkward around you guys. Now, even more so.

I'm super full now, and I'm gonna go shower since I should, so bye~

Alice Lieberg

Fire Emblem Fates - Localization

Hello~

 

I have problems okay?

Like, some of this isn't really confirmed, but if it's true, then I'm losing my sh*t.

I'm sorry, but removing the petting feature? It's disgusting? What?

FIRST OF ALL, as if we don't do worse stuff in other games like stripping people as they take damage, blood everywhere, SEX IN GAME? Like petting is PG-13. They are fully-clothed. Yeah, I GUESS THEY SAY SUGGESTIVE THINGS IF YOU HAVE AN S-SUPPORT WITH THEM, but last time I checked, you didn't really translate the Japanese dialog, and you can change the English dialog at will, SO HEY, WHY YOU REMOVE. It lets you get support points for free, like f*ck off Nintendo ._.

Not confirmed though, but if it's true... :T

THE NAME CHANGES. Well, iunno what to say. I shouldn't really complain, BUT SOME OF THE NAME CHANGES ARE STUPID. Well, unnecessary is better x)

Like Hana from Kazahana is a bit... meh. Azura from Aqua? Aqua is English so I don't really know why they did that. 

But yeah, nitpicking.

I heard we won't be getting some DLC? That's a bummer. I don't know why, but... WHY.

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I still want the game. I wish I actually took the time to learn how to write Japanese to be honest haha. Oh well. ((I wanna play the game Vanilla </3))

Alice Lieberg

New Year's Resolutions! :D

Hey guys~


It might be a bit late for this, but I'm making New Year's Resolutions, because I can somewhat? see what I'm aiming for x)

1. I want to maintain a pretty active YouTube channel.

So as some of you might know, I used to have a somewhat popular YouTube video, since I subbed things for the community. It was nice, and I liked having fans of my somewhat average work, but I wanted something more, so I went and made a new channel; Goddammit Jueun. :D

It features games, but from time to time, I will definitely put random stuff, like what happens... in my life. Yeah. If you want, you can check it out, and hopefully, you'll subscribe? :D

My new YouTube channel :)


2. I want to get good grades. 

Well, this is just a goal for me. I want to secure a future for myself. I left my college and BOOM, I'm in uni :')

I left my science degree behind, still have a diploma though x). I really wanted a fresh start, and I'm going to try to get that in uni :)


3. I want to be my old self again. 

This is weird to say but, I feel like I've changed. For the worst. Go to the bottom of the section if you don't want to read.

Over in 2015, things started changing a lot, and that involved my social life, my personal life, and my school life. I wasn't doing so well in school, and I lost some of my friends, and I find it harder to trust them now, even when I love them, and this has to do with my personal life, at home. I've wrote about it many times in my blog, but last year, I felt like my family wasn't at my side basically. At first, they were just frustrated at me, so I went to my friends where I felt safe. Then, when I thought they'd be happy with me (I got a job, the thing they were always bugging me about), they got really mad at me all the time, and I wasn't like... okay at the time? I had so much work, I had four science classes, and my job gave me so many hours too, that I wanted to quit (~25 hours a week). However, when I told my family about my situation, none of them really comforted me? It was always: "You're lazy" or "Talk to them and they'll change your hours". But I wasn't really playing games at the time, and the classes I were taking weren't exactly easy, and work wasn't letting me have shorter hours. So I spent my days, trying to pass, while getting screamed at all the time. And that stress got to me eventually, and I cried. For a very long time.

My family was also telling me things at the time, since I did TRY to go to them for help, but like I said, I got yelled at. And they were telling me things like: "Your friends might be making you feel better, but life just sucks, so you shouldn't trust them. We're your family." So I cried more. Nowadays, I just feel as though my life got like... I don't know. If I start remembering the not so long ago past, I cry. Many times a day. Strangers keep asking me if I'm alright XD

What's worse is that, I don't really feel confident in myself anymore. I hate my body, I hate my brain... I don't feel confident about myself anymore. I just feel like my family only knew how to attack me, rather than comfort me, so... I don't know what else to say I guess. x)

TL;DR: I want to be a more confident person like the person I used to be.

4. I WANT TO MAKE 10K.

Okay, this one is SO unlikely, but a goal is a goal right?

I want to save money for many things, such as schooling, and being able to move out when I can I guess. And money's nice to have, to... spend... I guess XD

5. Fully functioning relationship?

Well, I have my LOVELY LOVELY boyfriend, I want to make that last I guess <3

But I also have my normal friends. And omg, it is TOO HARD, to stay in contact with everyone you like I feel. ._.

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LET'S DO THIS. I AIN'T SCARED OF 2K16.

Alice Lieberg